Me Thinking

Chapter 7(Last chapter) 'Jack Miller, come forward.’ Judge Judy mandates. My dad walks up into that little balcony where I was standing. ‘Mr. Lowell, you may begin your inquisition.’   ‘Ok Mr. Jack. Been a long time isn’t it? So you’re accused of committing a murder and the court is in no denial that you have not committed this crime. We would like to straighten things out easily avoiding any unnecessary arguments. Please refrain from any violence or verbal abuse towards the defense party. You may begin to explain yourself for murdering Rain.’ ‘He took away my wife!’ ‘No, you divorced her. After your business was sky rocketing, you started ignoring your wife, your family and you weren’t home most of the time. Your daughter Emma told us a lot the lifestyle you lived. Most of the time you weren’t home. You were out with your clients. I mean that’s agreeable but staying out all night? What was all that?’ ‘I…   I was having an affair with one of my clients. Sh...

Chapter 6 ‘Mom, Dad, I’m sorry I killed her. Rain was never meant to be mine. You know why? Because I wasn’t able to sacrifice myself for her. ’ ‘Rain so tell us, what actually happened.’ Edward asks me. ‘I’m sorry mom… I’m so sorry…’ ‘Emma you have got to keep control of yourself and let people know of your crime.’ Edward demands. ‘I… I was in my room when all of this started to happen. I was on my laptop finishing up my assignment when I heard this creaking noise from downstairs. Someone was coming up the stairs. I went to Rain’s room to see what she was doing, ignoring the sound. I thought it’s probably the windows due to the wind. We have this closet room type thing in Rain’s room so I went it there to get a blanket as Rain had fallen asleep on the floor while coloring. There was this man standing in the room holding Rain while I was looking for a blanket. He started talking.’ ‘Rain, Rain, Rain honey. Your dad took something I treasured a lot, now it’s my turn to tak...

Chapter 5 Two years later … My 25 th visit to the court now. Jack or my step dad isn’t giving up. I get up to go wash my face before I leave for court. I look at my hideous self in the mirror and I see an unattractive body with an offensive frame of mind, lanky and eerie fingers, a trivial stroke of contentment and a bottomless hole in mind or rather an abyss that I am drowning in with thoughts of Rain. A pale face with black dents under my eyes, a hefty and troubled forehead with eyes that portray sadness, guilt, regret and love. Concluding this horrible journey, I see death staring into my eyes. As if it just jumped into my soul and plucked it out of my body. ‘You deserve it Emma. You did this to here. You didn’t love her enough. You didn’t care enough- Stop… ‘You took her for granted. Her love was invisible to you. You should be invisible now shouldn’t you- Go away! You did this. It’s you who deserve this death not Rain-’ Stop it… Agghhh this voice in my head it’...